So, I thought as a follow up from Monday's rant I would let you all know how very much I was touched by all of your comments, your thoughts, and your compliments. I was not expecting that large of a response, and although I was nervous about offending people, I'm glad I brought up the subject. It helped me get to know all of you a little bit better and realize that I'm not alone with my petty insecurities.
It's kind of funny... I wrote it as a way to weed out the followers that couldn't care less, but instead it brought me even more followers than I was expecting! This just reassures me that you all appreciate my honesty, as I appreciate yours, and I want you all to know this is a place where openness and honesty is embraced. That's why it's called "Confessions" of a Graphic Design Student. Let's face it. I'm an open book!
All my life I have worn my heart on my sleeve and I have found that it's sometimes really hard for me to hold back or put a wall up. I just let it out I guess... and there are goods and bads attached to that. Good because people know who I am right away and I have developed very deep and meaningful relationships, but also bad because sometimes I have a hard time censoring myself or maybe will let my guard down around people I don't necessarily trust, and in return I get hurt or it backfires on me. But, would I change myself if I could? I don't think I would...
I have seen people that keep their walls up air tight and go about life like that, never letting anyone in, and I pity them. They use this as protection and think they have everything figured out because they don't ever get hurt, but what's truly tragic is the possibility that they won't ever experience the benefits of having someone see their souls, the good and bad, and still love them for all they are. They are missing out on one of the best feelings in the world!
In this blogging world we really don't know each other so it ends up being a place where you can either expose yourself for all you really and truly are or you can hide behind a wall of perfected words and edited photos giving the illusion of a happy/successful/magical/fairytale life.
If that's how I did things around here I would feel really empty inside. Keeping a blog would seem meaningless. Why put so much effort into trying to convince other people that my life is perfect? People can see right through that- and it doesn't inspire people- it makes them envy you and hate you as well. I believe envy is a wasted emotion and it's something we should not be encouraging from our readers. I feel the more we expose ourselves, the more we let others know the reality, the more we spread the fact that we are all human and we are all more alike than we ever thought we would be.
Of course there will be the occasional troll that comes along that has their own set of issues, but they will surely be outnumbered by people who accept you and love the insides of you, not just the outward appearance... and isn't that all that we really want anyway?
This is the perfect place to get unbiased thoughts- because I don't think anyone is here to judge- they are here to be inspired, to peek into the lives of others and find out how they are handling this roller coaster we call life. We can't possibly be laughing the whole ride having a good time. Sometimes we are scared and we want to scream- sometimes it's bumpy and the twists and turns make you feel like your veering off track- sometimes we feel sick to our stomach- sometimes it's terrifying as hell... but sometimes it's pure elation, and if we omit the scary parts, well... that's just no fun! It would be like riding a kid coaster that slowly goes around in a circle. Boooo!
So I challenge you... open up in one of your posts this week and just let it out. I predict you will not only feel better about yourself, but you will connect with others on a deeper level.
Besides, what are you so afraid of? :)
Besides, what are you so afraid of? :)
And to all of the lovely followers of mine that left those amazing, long, heartfelt comments:
From the bottom of my heart <3