My moment occurred to me after I had spent the whole day lounging around without a stitch of makeup... I do that a lot.
Now, I was blessed with a lot of things, but good skin was not one of them.
Having acne is semi-tolerable because I've become a pro at hiding it, but when I wake up in the morning and see the reality underneath, that's when I feel my worst.
And that's sad right? Because like, every woman should feel beautiful in their natural state, but it doesn't work like that for me. All of the makeup, hair, and clothes are there to help me feel good, but I also think they are there to help me trick everyone into thinking I'm cute.
So, I put on the show. I dress up, I wear the makeup, I do my hair, I look how I'm "supposed to look" according to my standards. But when I come home I just want to take it all off and be comfortable.
This is why I have the best husband in the world... because he gets to see me at my absolute worst and still tells me how beautiful I am every chance he gets. Every girl should have a guy like him.
Sometimes I don't believe him when he tells me that, though, especially on a day like today.
I mean, not many people would think I was beautiful if I graced them with this morning glow...
...but he does.
In my mind I'm thinking, "Really?" I tell him he's blinded by love, but he disagrees.
He tells me he wishes I could see myself as he sees me.
I'm working on it. I'm working on loving and accepting who I am inside and being comfortable in my own skin and not caring about anyone's judgements.
I think that being OK with posting this picture of me is progress, right?
*questions whether to save post as a draft and never look back?*
..... f*** it.
Am I alone in my insecurities without makeup? How do you feel about going au naturale? Where does your confidence come from?
Silly Kristen. That's a delightful picture!...
ReplyDeleteLast year, for Lent, I gave up beautification products, with the exception of ChapStick. I went completely natural for more than a month. It was...interesting. I didn't necessarily feel more beautiful, but it did help my confidence a little. In the end, I learned that I didn't need to use a lot of makeup to BE beautiful. Now, "dolling myself up" includes lip gloss, blush, and eyeliner. That's it. So simple, but stated.
ReplyDeleteAnd I'm sure he thinks you're beautiful regardless. I have a wonderful guy myself. And, even after I've lounged around the apartment in my sweatpants all day, my hair unbrushed, he will still come home from work, give me a hug and tell me "You're so beautiful."
I think that's where my confidence comes from. :)
I agree! Every girl needs a guy like that. And no, you are not alone. I don't particularly like looking in the mirror sans make-up. Eeks!!! :)
ReplyDeleteEvening, Kristen! Thankyou for your lovely comment, always nice to see a friendly face in blog-land :)
ReplyDeleteI really want to do some more of these little models, but in colour. What do you think?
Yviemarie
I couldn't agree with you more about the waking up in the morning feeling!! I still struggle with bits of acne here and there and combine that with oily skin.. AHH! Makeup and my the diffuser on my blow dryer are magical! I try to go w/o makeup for a day here and there, but I find I get oily so much faster w/o it on! I'm also really pale in the winter which doesn't help matters haha. Anyways just stopping by from FTLOB! :)
ReplyDeletep.s. I also just started a link party called "weekend recap!" for everyone to share what they did on the weekend if you're interested! :)
You are so adorable!! and lucky that you have a hubby who loves you as is!! I wish I had the balls to put up a makeup free picture but I'm afraid I'm not nearly as cute as you!! lol.
ReplyDeleteI can go with out most make up but take away my mascara and I feel like a boy. My eyelashes are so light that you can't even see them without mascara and I just look ridiculous!
ReplyDeleteYour hubby is definitely sweet. Mine doesn't quite understand my makeup obsession, either, but he tolerates it. HA. I think it's great for you to post a pic of yourself bare-faced! It's liberating! And you look great :)
ReplyDeleteDude... I just left you the most beautiful comment, but of course, I was using my iPhone, and it got all effed up... so let me try again...
ReplyDeleteHoly Shit Keester!!! I can't believe you posted a pic of yourself with no makeup. I know how much it bothers you when even your closest friends see you without makeup.
Let me tell you what I see in that silly picture...
I see my best friend. I see a beautiful woman who has recently walked through wildfire. I see a person who shines when she speaks, especially if it's something that she loves.
I see an amazing person who tries every day to be a good, kind, compassionate person. I see a girl who is passionate about expressing her freedom, which makes her an amazing artist.
I love you Kristen. Makeup or no makeup, makes no difference to me. Covered head to toe in bushes, mascara streaming down your face, you are beautiful.
Your husband is a good man. He loves you very deeply.
It's not hard to do... you're the best!
Hailey
I loved this post...laughed out loud! several times! I feel the same way :)
ReplyDeleteYou have to be so brave to publish your photo without make-up. In contrast to vast majority of girls :/
ReplyDeleteI think you're adorable!
ReplyDeleteI know what you're going through, though. Up until my mid-twenties, I had troubles with my skin and would wear a lot of makeup to cover it up.
Three things really helped me. One, I started changing my pillow case more often. Like every two days. That helped so, so much. Two, I looked at the products I was using. Anything with oil went bye-bye! Three, I stopped using anything with salicylic acid in it, because it's supposed to help blemish-prone skin, but if you have sensitive skin, it makes things worse.
Not very profound tips, but they worked for me. I guess the other thing that helped was realizing I wasn't my skin. Creativity is what makes me awesome, and while I think you're cute as a bag of buttons, I think it's what makes you awesome, too. *Hugs.*
You are gorgeous!
ReplyDeleteKristen,where I live it's about 40 degree C all the year round with about 98 percent humidity.I have no choice but to not wear any make-up-and I've grown up doing that.Nobody is perfect-you just have to learn being comfortable in your own skin :)
Your husband is right.Believe him.
Lots of love,
Sweta
i think you look just as pretty without it! i used to have to hide behind my make up but im beginning to get comfortable without it!
ReplyDeleteThink whatever ... Love the look!
ReplyDeleteI actually read this post a little bit ago and couldn't comment but was thinking, if we couldn't embrace the no make-up and the flaws, the beauty with-in wouldn't shine! you rock baby girl! i love the silly face too...we would totally have a blast together;-)
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