I have a confession to make...
It may not be very noticeable on the blog, but in real life, I am a total nervous nelly, particularly in public speaking... I always have a hard time gaining the confidence to speak up in public situations!
I feel much more comfortable conversing one-on-one rather than taking the spotlight in a group situation, even small groups of four (unless I've had a few drinks- then I'll say anything to anyone).
I'm always in awe of people who can come up with a brilliant little speech off the top of their head with the pressure of a hundred eyes watching (aka Josh). I watch the words rolling off their tongue as natural as can be, their body language signaling complete relaxation, and their personality shining through brighter than ever.
Me? I've always been better with a thought out script. Without a practiced plan I'm a jumbled, stumbling, face-palm-worthy mess.
For example, my previous receptionist duties have included making announcements over the intercom. An intercom, for goodness sakes... just my voice. But even still, every time I was asked to do that I wanted to hide or ask someone else to do it (and I did actually make other people do it most of the time!). If I was going to do it I had to write it out first, practice, almost die before I finally did it, then take deep breaths afterwards promptly needing a cigarette.
(I know, I'm such a freak.)
So, I just learned I'll be giving a 2-3 minute speech during each of my Oral Communication classes for the next five weeks. Even though part of me desperately wants to improve this side of me, I can't help but cringe at the thought of it. I know it all relates back to positive thinking, confidence, and just believing in myself. I'm pretty sure that's going to be a lifelong battle!
But, you know what made me feel a bit better during class tonight? Knowing there are other freaks like me. Famous ones!
Maybe they're not as nuts as me, but it's nice to see such successful people that have overcome their fears of public speaking...
I don't know... a shot of vodka before couldn't hurt.