|Cardigan: Macy's // Jeggings: Forever 21 // Boots: Walmart // Socks: Payless // Coat: Shopko // Hat, Scarf, Top: Gifted|
This particular day I decided to finger comb the ends of my hair, throw on a hat, and grab the first pieces of clothing I could find in my disheveled bedroom. I still completed my foundation routine but skipped the eyebrows and eyeliner. Then I asked Josh if I looked homeless, and he agreed a little bit (especially with the coat) but I like to think it had a vintage edge to it, no? :)
I have to admit, I sometimes feel self conscious without my eyeliner... I always think I end up looking tired, but that might have something to do with people's comments when they've see me in the past, like, "OMG what happened to your eye?! Did you get punched in the face? Are you SICK??"
Erm, no, a-holes!!! It's called MY ACTUAL FACE... but thank you, thank you so much for expressing your concern. *finger-gun and wink*
Every time I stress about that stuff I flash back to five years ago when my little sister told me something one morning as we were both getting ready in the same mirror.
I told her how I felt I NEEDED to wear my makeup to feel like myself. Even if we were just going to a McDonald's drive-through, I had to at least have my foundation on. How dare I show my acne scars and dark under eye circles to the McDonald's employee at the window?! Ohhhh, the shame!!
But, she said something along the lines of... "Kristen, your natural face IS who you are - that's the real you, and you should learn to feel beautiful that way."
That just really stuck with me for some reason.
I'll admit it - I'm vain. I like to look my best. I like pretty things, pretty clothes, pretty makeup and pretty hair, and I really don't like being spotted off my game. And yeah, I like a little attention here and there, even if it's from some creep checking me out at a red light... somehow that turns into flattery.
Deep down, I know it's a confidence issue - I struggle sometimes with self image and have to work on loving myself, but I think I've been doing better over the years.
I know it has a lot to do with Josh and how beautiful he makes me feel on a daily basis. It has to do with having a supportive family and true friends that could care less about my appearance. It has to do with feeling confident for other reasons - like being educated, being positive, working hard, and putting your talents to good use.
At the end of the day, I know if I feel good about who I am, flaws and all, that "pretty" feeling is going to radiate whether I'm covering them up or not. And those McDonald's employees? Well, they'll just have to deal with it.
Where do you rate yourself on the vanity scale? How do you feel when you don't stick with your normal beauty routine? Do you feel beautiful without your makeup? Why or why not?